~A Look At My Grey Matter~

Grandpa died on Sat. night. His spirit left his body at around 4:30, I felt him and called mom. His body died at 11ish PM.

I am gaining weight.....stuffing down feelings with food. I have a food "drug" of choice-Peanut Butter and Honey Sandwiches and lots of them.

Depression SUCKS...where the hell does it come from?? How does it happen?? How the hell do you get rid of it??
WHAT HAPPENED TO ME?

The only good things in my life right now are my babies and my BF! And I am hanging on to them with claws buiried DEEP! I truely hope I am not affecting them to badly with this.

I HURT.....PAIN PAIN GO AWAY...........I have shit to do today!!!!