***A not so Quickie 4 ya***

Sorry if I made 1 or 2 of you worried, didn’t mean to, not a lot I can do right now. I have been in bed, well.....couch & recliner, vomiting with a fever hanging around 102. for the better part of 3 weeks now.

I have not been going to school, which means my main classes will have to wait till fall ~grumble~
I have not been working at the kid’s school, which means no whopping $200. check at the end of the month, that being the last check of the school year. I am not sure when I will be able to return to work or school.

I have seen 2 doctors so far, neither knows what the hell is wrong. I finally told my rheumatologist to just tell me that I have some kind of killer disease and I am going to die. It would be so much easier to take that way than to sit here like this not knowing a damn thing. At least she understood THAT request but only stated that my fibromyalgia is made much worse by this underling secret problem and this is why my whole damn body hurts and I can not move. Then she gives me 3 more meds and sends me on my way.

I see my neurologist on the 19th, the one I do NOT like. The doctor that told me my problems where, check this out, MIGRAINE related. Yes, of course!!! My problems could NOT possibly be caused from my Chiari and the 7 brain surgeries I had for that, maybe some scar tissue, nawww….couldn’t be. ~sigh~

Anyway, while I rest, in-between bathroom breaks, I focus on my body and I think this all might be caused from an inner ear infection. Simple, huh?? Do you think these doctors, TOP RATED I might add, even thought to consider my inner ear?? NOPE they did not! Why?? Well, because I am just too complicated for that. Too complicated to have anything a normal human being could have.

So my symptoms are, high fever with chills and mainly unbreakable even with a Tylenol, motrin mix. Body pain [mainly my fibro] Ever single time I turn my head, even slowly, I get so dizzy, like the room in on hyper-drive spinning mode that I feel like I am passing out and then I vomit- every time. What do YOU think it could be??

Today has been a good day, aside from body aches, I have had a low-grade temp, staying around 100-101 and I have only vomited 3 times. For some reason I can not sleep right now, to many things going through my mind.

My house is trashed and I am trying to figure out how to help my kids to clean. Trust me, they need help! It will take an army to clean this hell hole and I have no idea where to start.

Ok….it has taken me about an hour or so to write this…..make that 4 times vomiting today or will that one count for my 1st tomorrow?? I hurt, I hate feeling this way, I miss my friends- the ones that DO post and the ones that OBVIOUSLY have no idea HOW TO POST ~grumble~ No worries I still love you all.

I will try to post again soon. I just wanted to give you an update.

MY OLDEST DAUGHTER has a post that updates her feelings on this mess, she needs support badly….all three of them do, so if you have it in your hearts, please stop by their blogs and tell them that I will be ok, please, I don’t think they believe me anymore.
Their links are on my side bar also.
Britt: http://nightshadesmantel.blogspot.com/2005/05/sigh.html
Zac: http://www.zathreslairofdoom.blogspot.com/
Sam: http://funkyflyingmonkey.blogspot.com/