Yes, even I have a breaking point.

At some point yesterday I lost a CC that had about $500.00 on it. I have traced my steps over and over again. I have asked the guys at QT and given them my number to call if they find it. I tore the house and the car apart.

Finally I just sat down and cried. I cried, not only because I lost the card, but because I have been so busy and I can not keep up with myself.
I cried because I can not do everything I have to or want to do.

I can not cry in front of my kids because they always worry that there is something very wrong. Later they could tell I was crying and I had to explain, sometimes we all need a good cry.

Sometimes I “break” because even though I do much more than any other mother I know and I am disabled on top of it, I still feel that I am not doing enough.

We are doing the Wizard of Oz at school; I have made 4 tree costumes, 2 crows and 2 munchkins. I have been up there every night after school until 9:30 helping with dress rehearsals, make-up and costume malfunctions. I have been going to work {at school} during the day. I am running contest for the Elementary children and stressing about not having enough prizes for the winners on Friday.

We are in the 4th Quarter up at school now and I am trying to get all 3 of my babies to end this year on Honor Roll, so far they are doing great!

I just started school and I am cramming almost 4 years in a 2 year college so I can come out with a Bachelors degree and move on the SLU school of Law. So far the classes are easy- thank the gods for that!

I am doing my normal “mommy” duties, dishes, laundry, counselor, advisor, mediator, cook, maid and the list goes on.
I swear I would not be sleeping at all if my doctors weren’t making me by drugging me at night.

SO I told my kids {and myself} that losing my card was my Goddess’ way of saying “STOP”. It has happened before and it works every time.

So after I lost the card last night, I only ran to the school 4 times and did one load of laundry, dishes and living room. Today I am working, studying, cleaning and the rest of the laundry. I am making chore-charts for the kids’ cuz I desperately need the help and they are wayyy old enough!
So now I am off, again, to work lunch at the school.
TTFN