~*~Well that lasted longer than I wanted it to!~*~


I quit my job. Yep, I have been sick and in tremendous pain for 4 days now and I am guessing it is because I sit in front of a computer for 3+ hours before I am allowed to move. NOT a good thing for the Chiari. There are certain things Chiarians can do when forced to sit in front of computers, however, this POE will not allowed for: foot rest, lumbar pillows or fans. So.....they can have the job back and I will go collect my 1 1/2 week check in a couple days.
I will not put myself and my family back through the suffering of my illness when I truely do not need to.
I have decided to do whet I can from home- use my talents.... so I am posting this message all over the net.........
PLEASE READ


Hello everyone,

I am in need of some donated items;
~such as material- any kind of fabric, even bits and pieces;
~YARN, any colors even just scraps are okay;
~thread, any colors

If you have any thing laying in the back of your closets you want to get rid of, please pass them onto me. I plan on making dresses and robes and I am also going to start back on my Afghans so that I can make money. Working outside the home is not doable with my health right now, so I am going to try this.

If you have anything just email me here and let me know!
Thank you in advance!!

Now if YOU are reading this here and want to help.....my email is lady_persephone1227@yahoo.com ~~THANKX~~

Think it's time I blog again??



I have been on quite the hiatus from blogger as of late, haven’t I?
I have been……..hella busy! Had to go out and get a job. It is only part time- 29 hours a week, but I have not worked outside the home in nine, that’s 9 YEARS!
So I get up with the children in the morning, we all get ready and hit the door by 7 AM and I get back home by 1:30. By that time I have dinner to think about, laundry to do, homework to help with, kids to clean, and cleaning to catch up on. That is all well and good, it wears me out quite a bit but I do feel better about myself. The thing that I miss the most out of all of this is not being able to chat on the phone with my bestest friends all day!!!! I Miss them- TERRIBLY!!!
{sob, sniff}


So the job is easy, too easy really. No challenge at all. It is telemarketing, selling newspapers for five hours around the USA. I chose this job cuz of my being disabled, it is easy on me and I also get to keep my SSI. Talk about my SSI……I really wish it was the 3rd of the month- I NEED MONEY. I don’t get paid from my job for another week and a half {or so} and my damn income tax is taking for friggin’ ever to get here!
I suppose it be time to break out the ol’ altar and do a little rite. My family is in dire need of money flow now. I need a CAR, I need a home, I need FOOD, I need a DIVORCE and the {of course} a divorce PARTY!! Well, okay, the party ain’t so much a NEED, but it would sure help right now!
So I have a $$$$ Rite but it is an oldie, if any of my most precious Pagan readers have a Money Rite that works, PLZ email me, I would surely appreciate it!


I have to put a shout out to everyone that has helped me in the past 1½ week.
~~ Ch, baby, where would my sanity level be without my balance? Thank you so much for being here with us everyday, thank you for the smile you put on my face no matter how I feel, thank you for being YOU!
~~S…..thank you for the rides, company and labor on my car. You are quite the woman and I am so blessed to have you in my life!
~~Chasmyn….I SOOOOOO miss talking to you but when I do you ALWAYS seem to know how to make it all better! You have always known how to make me see things so differently and that makes life so much better! I LOVE you sister-friend, FOREVER!
~~Tracy, thank you for the donations you brought over the other night. You say it wasn’t much, but I am so VERY grateful for the abundance of help and love. You always give so very much!
~~Ted and Pops, thank you both so much for the love, understanding and rides to work. Where would I be without neighbors like you?
~~A, Nan, and all my GIRLS…thank you all so much for calling and writing just to check on me. I am doing better everyday, I remain positive; I have no choice but to remain positive. I need to get DRUNK…so when we going out again??

Okay, I think that is enough update for now. I have to eat and do laundry. I will try not to stay away too long this time!

I have to clear something up here about the post on the BF.

I am in no way "striking out" about anything my friends have to say about him, however, I was making a point {mostly for MYSELF as this is MY blog} as to how all the other relationships have gone.

Seems funny to me the way in which this is all working out. Seems even funnier {after talking to C last night in length about my life and ME} that no one knows what is truly going on here. Mostly my fault, I have been unable, unwilling to talk about my hardships. { I Love you, C; sister-friend!}

All I have to say is this; those that have known me, those of you that are close know and/or will know what is TRULY going on here. If it so happens quote “that this is the same petty bullshit that separated you from the rest of us last time” end quote then I suppose I find who my true friends have always been. So be it.

The Natural Way To Dye Easter Eggs!
This Easter, why not color your eggs using nature's very own dyes? It's possible to come up with a great number of colors using natural ingredients that can easily be found in almost any kitchen.

Pale Red: Fresh beets or cranberries, frozen raspberries
Orange: Yellow onion skins
Light yellow: Orange or lemon peels, carrot tops, celery seed or ground cumin
Yellow: Ground turmeric
Pale green: Spinach leaves
Green-gold: Yellow Delicious apple peels
Blue: Canned blueberries or red cabbage leaves
Beige to brown: Strong brewed coffee

To dye the perfect Easter eggs the natural way,
here's what to do:
1. Put eggs in a single layer in a pan. Pour water in pan until the eggs are covered.

2. Add about a teaspoon of vinegar.

3. Add the natural dye appropriate to the color you want your eggs to be. (The more eggs you are dying at a time, the more dye you will need to use.)

4. Bring water to a boil, then reduce heat and simmer for 15 minutes.

5. Remove the substance you used to color the eggs. Put eggs in a bowl. If you want your eggs to be a darker shade, cover them with the dye and let them stand overnight in the refrigerator.



Marbleized Eggs
Wrap fresh eggs in onion skin. Carefully insert the egg (with skin) into old pantyhose and ties the ends so the egg can't escape. Hard boil the eggs. Remove the pantyhose - eggs are marbled.



Paraffin Eggs
Melt some paraffin inside a can placed in a pan of hot water (on the stove). Paint the melted paraffin over fresh greenery or small Spring flower placed on a hard boiled egg.

And AFTER the eggs are eaten:

Eggshell Mosaic
A great way to use up the remains of the Easter eggs.

Materials:
Colored eggshells
construction paper
crayon, pen or marker
glue

On a piece of paper have child {or YOU}draw a simple design (e.g. flower, balloon, kite, egg). Spread glue in design area. Sprinkle bits of broken eggshells onto glue. Allow to dry then hang and enjoy.

Per last entree: and phone call thought I would add these, as I am sure they will come up in comments.

signs as seen by friends/family

#1 dead end job
#2 no desire to improve self
#3 cheater
#4 disrespectful
#5 dead-beat dad {??}
#6 looser/scrub
#7 {fill in the blank}



Facts about him

#1 Works ass off for dead end job for now
#2 going to start school to become Electrician ASAP
#3 Has not "cheated" Has slept with other women per his present GF REQUEST to do so.
#4 Quite man
#5 talks to his children OFTEN/ pays his support on time/loves them/is proud of them/displays pictures of them in his home
#6 has his OWN place, pays his OWN bills, does his OWN laundry, cooks his OWN food, does his OWN shopping,
saves his money

Sounds like I am trying to "build him up", I am, however, trying to dispel myths.

No secret, I have been married three times. All three times something happened that was major and made it to where I had to leave that man. The only one I could have possibly stayed with was my second husband who was an alcoholic. We both made an agreement that we would be better off splitting and it was very amicable divorce.

My first husband beat me, terribly and ended up putting me in the hospital for a week. I left him after three months. I was 19 y.o. But strong enough to leave {thank the gods}.None of my "friends" believed that he could have ever done such a thing- until he married again and started beating his next wife and CHILDREN. {fools}

My last husband raped me and is extremely dangerous and very capable of doing much worse according to a doctor that is, himself, too frightened to see him.

When I was 18 y.o I was engaged to a very wealthy young man who was in the Navy. His family was GREAT- he was a VERY abusive alcoholic.

I have quite the pattern going on here, don’t I? It has a lot to do with the fact that I grew up in a very abusive home and these type of men are all I am used to and comfortable with!

Now, ALL of these men where WELCOMED with OPEN ARMS by my family and all of my friends! They where all liked very much! Let me add here that these type of men, by my perceptions, are very good at bullshitting people.

It was not until AFTER I had to leave these men that anyone one had anything BAD to say about them. When they where gone there was never anything good said about any of them again.

So, Okay, I made a wrong choice with these men, I broke it off with these men. My whole life has been FULL of these men. My whole life has been FULL of people telling me that THEY, TOO, like these type of men, until they are gone, of course.

So now I have a quite man. I have a man in my life that:
#1 Is a GREAT FATHER to his children
#2 Has a job he works his ass off at
#3 Takes care of HIMSELF and his loved ones
#4 He is a GENTALMAN
#5 He is not a fighter/not loud/not argumentative
#6 VERY respectful
#7 NOT a drug addict/ alcoholic
#8 NOT a cheater {even though some think so}
#9 He knows how to DRIVE a car!! LOL
#10 He is very loving/handsome/sincere/caring/strong
#11 VERY RESPONCIBLE

Those who have known me, know that I have said MANY good things about those other men also. I know that, so I sit back and wonder, am I doing that with HIM? Maybe I was at first…..so I stopped and took a good-hard look at what kind of person he really is and in conclusion ; all of the above is true.

So why is it that NO ONE in my life, none of my friends or family like him?
Well, the answer they give me is this…..He is disrespectful because he does not talk to them. He does not acknowledge their existence. This is not just from one person but from many he has met.
He is a very quite, self-contained person until you get to know him. He did the same to me when we first met.
Right now there are many “signs” that everyone sees. Keep in mind, this is what they see on the outside of him. Since he is a quite man, I tend to be quite about “us”.
The relationship he was in before kind of kept him in a bland state of existence and there was no need to make anything of himself-ever, even though he has great desire to become so much more. I won’t go into too much here about him as I am sure once people get to know him they will see for themselves.

The reason for this blog is just this…….
IF I and ALL OF MY FRIENDS and FAMILY where totally wrong about all of the other men in my life…..ie……thinking they were such GREAT men……and
None of them like this one………
What is that telling me???
Comments are VERY welcome

No, I have not forgotten about this wonderful Blog! How could I? I LOVE my blog! Life as I know it has been so very crazy and each time I think I can make it to the PC I get turned around in a different direction.

The party last weekend did not turn out like any of us had planned. #1 mistake: Planning party on a full moon weekend.
There was an abundance of drama and I, of course, played a part in that. I did my best to keep face {and everyone else’s} and then I went HOME.
Had a feeling that one of my kiddos needed me and I was right, so I am glad I went back home instead of going to breakfast. I am not sure what the rest of the girls ended up doing but I hope they had fun. Hard to tell cuz since then no one has said much of anything in the group. {humph} Guess I am gonna have to use some of my ol’ “shock-factor” to make them start talking again.
Since that weekend I have made vows to myself, my children and my BF…..
#1…..not going out to “PARTY” so much any more {kids worry too much, BF doesn’t like it so much, gives me a headache}
#2…..stop CUSSING {DAMN IT} where the heck did this potty mouth come from anyway??!!
#3…...Take care of ME!! I am doing soooo very well actually! I have gone from 248 to 200 since 3/15/04 and I eat VERY well!
I have stopped biting my nails- they are long and strong!
I have a JOB! First time in NINE- yes, I said 9 years!!
Looking for a home big enough for my kiddos and I…..just US and no one else! I CAN DO THIS!
Being “forced” to take care of ME and mine is actually a very good thing. I have noticed a lot of changes in the way I feed my children, dress them, discipline them and school them too! They are a lot happier, seems like somehow I was able to relieve them of some stress, now I just have to teach them about MONEY! They seem to think I have it coming out of my ears.

Next blog: Thoughts on BF vs Friends