I am So VERY sorry for my extended absence. I promise to never let THAT happen again. Not only was I gone from here, I was gone from my ladies group too.
It has been a VERY hard month, my life has been ripped apart at the seams and I am struggling to hold in the guts.
To make an extremely long story short-
#1…I am getting a divorce. MadMan moved out, he did something I think I will never forgive him for and even though I still love him, I want to destroy him, completely!
#2….My GF and I split and it was NOT pretty. I got very angry and a side of me came out that has been hidden for several years. That very hateful, angry, spiteful side that even I cannot stand. Most likely I will never speak to her again. You can get more of the story by reading her blog I am sure. I wrote an email to our woman’s group and I was going to post it here, but I have since calmed down. It was THAT ugly!
So now, I am working on finding a place to live in this school district that I can afford on SSD and the little child support I MIGHT get if my other ex’s drunk ass remembers to mail it. When the shit hits the fan in my life- it hits it FULL FORCE.
There are many good things that will come out of this though. I will be a MUCH stronger person, My kids are very well protected and they know it, in return they will become very strong also. If they ever run into trouble they will know how to deal, or at least who to turn to. They are the reason I fight, they are the reason for my smiles everyday, they are my strength a lot of the time.
I will be able to act on my life plans now, I plan on moving to Washington Island, I plan on going back to school for criminal justice, I plan on making money by using my sewing talents in the mien time. All of this was put on the back burner for so long, now I am forced to move with it!
So that is a short run down, I will blog more later TODAY. I must go clean while my kiddos are at their party, so they can come home and mess it up again!