***RECOMMENDATION***

Rarely do I come across a cleaning product tough enough to withstand my household messes.

I was a slight bit excited about the whole OXY thing but seriously disappointed when it just would not cut it. Nothing this product was marketed to do could be accomplished in THIS household.

I have one teenager and 2 tweens, 3 cats and 2 chinchillas. Tons of laundry, most of the shirts are stained, the pants have writing on them. There are stains on counters, floors, you look anywhere and you find a stain.

Anywho….I was shopping at Family Dollar the other day and bought Fantastik with OxyPower. I almost didn’t buy it because of the “OxyPower” but I needed a cleaner so home it came with me.

Let me tell you, this cleaner is DaBomb! It loosened food stuck to the table and counters. I didn’t need any extra effort to scrub it off, just had to wipe it away.

I also just recently painted the kitchen and there where paint splatters. I sprayed this on the splatters and up they came too.

Simply Amazing! Fantastik with OxyPower! No more stains, no more paint splatters, no elbow grease needed to clean! Just spray and wipe!

I HIGHLY recommend this product!

Off to see the Wizard


As mentioned in a previous post, I have been very busy. Now in that aforementioned post, it may have sounded like I was bitching about this being busy, but, I was letting off steam and frustration. The fact is, I am so very happy right now!

I am home for an hours break today so I had to post this.
The kids are putting on the play for the rest of the school today and the actual play starts tonight at 7pm.

I am so VERY proud of all of them. They are just wonderful, happy, perfect actors. Some are even better than the students I was schooled with at VAP.

Samantha has, as of today, hit her breaking point. The little angel is just so tired. I will be bringing her home with me at one so she can nap and get ready for tonight.

I invite all my readers {ALL 3 of you} to come on up to Bayless High School Auditorium and see the Wizard of Oz. The show starts at 7pm, Friday, Saturday and Sunday nights. Tickets are $7 at the door. It will be a great time!

I am just so PROUD!

***thankx to aktualne for the awesome Oz pic***

ATTENTION.....ATTENTION PLEASE


My Daughter has finally posted to her blog! First time since October 5 of 2004!

She is very bright and writes great poems. Please go read the one she has posted tonight and leave a comment for her.

Thank You......
Now back to your regular programming.

Yes, even I have a breaking point.

At some point yesterday I lost a CC that had about $500.00 on it. I have traced my steps over and over again. I have asked the guys at QT and given them my number to call if they find it. I tore the house and the car apart.

Finally I just sat down and cried. I cried, not only because I lost the card, but because I have been so busy and I can not keep up with myself.
I cried because I can not do everything I have to or want to do.

I can not cry in front of my kids because they always worry that there is something very wrong. Later they could tell I was crying and I had to explain, sometimes we all need a good cry.

Sometimes I “break” because even though I do much more than any other mother I know and I am disabled on top of it, I still feel that I am not doing enough.

We are doing the Wizard of Oz at school; I have made 4 tree costumes, 2 crows and 2 munchkins. I have been up there every night after school until 9:30 helping with dress rehearsals, make-up and costume malfunctions. I have been going to work {at school} during the day. I am running contest for the Elementary children and stressing about not having enough prizes for the winners on Friday.

We are in the 4th Quarter up at school now and I am trying to get all 3 of my babies to end this year on Honor Roll, so far they are doing great!

I just started school and I am cramming almost 4 years in a 2 year college so I can come out with a Bachelors degree and move on the SLU school of Law. So far the classes are easy- thank the gods for that!

I am doing my normal “mommy” duties, dishes, laundry, counselor, advisor, mediator, cook, maid and the list goes on.
I swear I would not be sleeping at all if my doctors weren’t making me by drugging me at night.

SO I told my kids {and myself} that losing my card was my Goddess’ way of saying “STOP”. It has happened before and it works every time.

So after I lost the card last night, I only ran to the school 4 times and did one load of laundry, dishes and living room. Today I am working, studying, cleaning and the rest of the laundry. I am making chore-charts for the kids’ cuz I desperately need the help and they are wayyy old enough!
So now I am off, again, to work lunch at the school.
TTFN

Are you ever just grateful for the sage advice of your elders??

I know that I most certainly am! I am eternally grateful for my student counselor at Forest Park.

Here is my day; I drove out to school, in Fenton to take my test and then drove all the way to Forest Park College {which is by the Zoo} to talk to my counselor. We had a nice long, heart to heart where I informed him on my decision on an accelerated course to becoming a lawyer. He was patient with my explanation and then turned it all around and it all just opened up in front of me. All of the details would most likely bore you to tears, so I will spare you and just let you know, I have dropped the accelerated course and now have a new one that will take me 6 years but get me soooo much further!

My first two years will be at Forest Park Community, I will leave there with my Bachelors Degree. I will then pick up my classes and my MASTERS DEGREE at St Louis U School of Law {see picture above} **smirk **

My counselor has a tremendous amount of faith in my ability to succeed, not just cuz he has to, I can see it in his eyes and he can see it in mine. He has made himself available for me whenever I need him. I think what made him so interested in my career is I am taking 3 different language classes to enhance my career.

Even though I am brimming over with excitement here, I am a bit disappointed that I scored an 83% on the test today. Sigh I knew I should have studied more instead of cramming it all in one night. I will do better next time, I know I will because I can’t hang with a “B”s.

So in a nut shell, I will be a prosecutor, most likely in “general practice” in six wonderful years, having my Masters Degree in Criminal Law will be a dream come true, my counselor rocks, OH YEAH- Missouri Child support Enforcement SUCKS AZZ cuz they lost my damn paperwork-AGAIN- {thinkpositivethinkpositivethinkpositive}
OK Third times a charm.

Dinners Burning
American Idol is on!
TTFN
Kissz, Hugz, Likz, and all that jazz

~Long Post-Lots-a-Info-Here~
It has been one hell of a week/weekend ‘round these parts.
First of all, I have been able to go OUT with my friends for the past 3 weeks in a roll and it has been awesome!

Second, remodeling a building that was built in the 1800’s is a freakin’ hard a$$ job!
My kitchen is now Blue and I made beautiful drapes, pot holders, aprons and other kitchen stuff! Yeah- Domestic Me!!
I also made my landlord drapes for his doorways.
I have started on dog pillows for my friend Marie and I will be making Wizard Of Oz costumes for the school. Woooh
The guys finally finished with the roof and we can now go on top of our building and see all of St Louis and it is so beautiful! The 4th of July will be awesome cuz we can see the Arch perfectly! We are even talking about a smallish pool for up there too! Whhohooo

In my previous post, I mentioned a man I met that I was quite taken by. I sent him my number, again, in messenger and...{clickthereadmorelinknow} still no call. Sigh
I was, however, able to google at him this last Friday night when we all went to the park.

Oh-Party in the Park with Trixie and all the little Trixie fans! We had such a great time! My kiddos just rocked until they couldn’t even move anymore! The girls love KW so much and after seeing them in person, they decided that they, too, where going to be singers! Not only that, they mentioned how odd it was that they where almost identical to KW and Les {of Trixie} and to look at them, I have to admit, they do look like miniature Trixie Delight.

M {the man of previous blog entrée} was as handsome as ever and actually spent time near my little piece of the park, of which I was very happy about!!!
Thing is, I have to just shrug and try to breath through this one. I like him too much, therefore, I am totally afraid to talk to him, afraid I might say the wrong thing. I have never “chased” a man and I will not start now and I have to admit, I am a little unsettled that he has not called. I really should not be surprised given the room mate he has. I mean, I really like his roomie, as a friend, just don't like his outlook on women.

I never did what I have already done with M with any other man and I think that upsets me the most. Giving of myself so totally, I was so open……… sigh

I have been single for a year now; I guess I am feeling the need to have companionship again. I know better than to find companionship in a damn bar anyway.

I love to have fun, I love that the past 3 weeks I was able to cut loose with the Trixie crowd that is just not who I am. I deserve better and will get better once my priorities are in order.

~Weekend Update~

Per my previous post: The little boy who ran away is safe and sound at home. He actually walked into school on his own that day after buying himself a candy bar at QT.

This weekend started great! I went to “That One Place” to see Trixie. They rocked as usual and even got 2 of our guys up on stage to sing. We have some great pics from Friday that I may add to my slideshow at the top of this blog.

That same night I met a man who............. I am totally attracted to, I will call him M. M is very handsome and sweet, saved me from having to dance with someone I didn’t want to dance with. We have A LOT in common with each other. M made me feel those damned emotions that I thought I never would feel again; emotions that I haven’t felt since I lived in Florida- circa 1998. *sigh
M lives with a man who is very much a ”pretty boy type” who only likes “pretty girl types” and I am kind of worried that this friend will maybe, somehow cloud M’s perception of me. I really love his room mate, he is a great guy, I am just worried. I am more worried that I, myself, clouded M’s perception of me as he seen my OH-SO-TRASHED hell hole I hide in and of course I can’t just say, “well, it isn’t like this all the time.” And expect him to believe me.

OMG! I like M, maybe too much. I feel like a damn teenager again. I haven’t talked to M since Saturday morning. He allowed me to add him to my messenger last night and I got all excited and giggly- how sickening is THAT….. I plan on seeing him on Friday night, I suppose I will see if he still likes me then, I am just hoping he calls me before then- like TODAY…..yeah….today would be nice……
God, I make me sick…… But it is ooohhhh so good – right now anyway.


So for the rest of the weekend........
I am cleaning, mainly because I am really mad at myself for letting my place go to shit. I am sewing the drapes for my landlord to get him off my back and carpeting the bathroom and installing my pedestal sink. I think that should do to keep my mind busy and off M for the day, don’t you?

Now for the downers of the week

At work this morning I find out that there is a boy that ran away from home. One I am rather close to and care about very much. He is so very young, still in elementary school.
While I was in talking to the principal I over heard that the grandmother said, “he did this before so I am just going to the doctor and I will worry about it later”. WTF??!! How ignorant is that? He may have done this before but we have registered sex offenders in this freaking neighborhood that would love to have him for lunch!
I am so upset and there is nothing I can do. I have no money for gas in the car so I can’t go drive around looking. IF I do find him, I can’t put him in my car because the principal said that would jeopardize me. I just pray that when I go into work at lunch, he is there.

Downer #2; I had to drop school due to financial reasons. I could not get a co-signer on my Sally May loan. I am not giving up though. I now know the classes I need for my Associates degree and I am looking into distance learning through the community colleges here. The Federal Government has money to pay for my schooling and damn it I WILL GET MY SHARE!

~Still Flying High~

I went to Quincy, Ill this last weekend with a group of friends and had the time of my life!

First S had my babies stay the night with her family. {Thank you sweetie, I really appreciated that} and then I took the road trip with N and KW.


The car ride was a blast! Lots of great chit-chat and singing and laughing and before we knew it we were at the hotel. We were greeted by some more of our closest, wonderful friends. They were already into the jello shots and having a great time.

Then off to Backwaters with the band for yet another rockin’ show.
Everything else is gonna just stay in Quincy, just let me assure you, we had an awesome time!

Today is my bothers Birthday! The big 30, Happy Birthday Bro!