To my dearest first born,

Last Wednesday and Thursday was very scary to you, I know this now. I have been thinking of this all day, the more I talk to family and friends, the more I find out what happened.
Ms. Jeanie told me that on Wednesday I was like a zombie that morning at work and she knew something was wrong. That makes since because, honestly I do not remember any of the week at all. I wish I never would have gotten sick, I truly wish you and your brother and sister would not have seen me that way. The more I think about myself not knowing at all what I was doing or saying to you guys, the more upset I become at the situation. I just can not imagine that was actually ME there those days, totally brainless. Worse than all my brain surgeries put together.

I want you to know that I am very proud of you.
I am very proud to be able to say that my daughter knew exactly what to do when I was ill.
I am very proud that you held your head, your emotions and you took control. You are such a leader, you are so grown up! I hate that you had to be forced into that, baby, but you made mom very, very happy and safe.
Thank you for being such a wonderful, beautiful young woman.
Thank you for being strong and holding me up when you should not have to, when I truly needed you and when you are too young to even understand.
You are so wonderful! I want the world to know what a beautiful gift I have in you! Thank you for being mine!
I LOVE YOU Baby!