Listening to: Matchbox Twenty
Waiting for: American Idol

I am hungry, I am aggravated, I am motivated but I am procrastinating. I have so many things on my mind and have had for about a week now and all I can seem to do about it is sit here on my ass wondering what to blog about.

Maybe if I talk it out, I can see it differently and be able to get moving.

What things you ask?
Well, like how the heck does a single mother of 3 make it in this world with a Bush in office.

#1 I take 20 pills a day, 11 prescriptions that up to a couple months ago, Medicaid was paying for. Slowly, one by one, the drugs I need to stay in remission are falling off the Medicaid coverage list. What used to cost no more than $13.00 a month is now costing $85.00.

#2 I get SSI in the amount of $655 and the kids each get $56, our rent is $600 which leaves $111.

Now, I have to take my meds, that is a life or death thing. My meds have been cut and down-graded as much as they can be, I just do not know what I am gonna do - Let a Bush kill me off, along with all the others in my situation?

Ok so, after I pay my rent and Meds, I have $26.00 left for my Gas and Electric bill. I also have a car that I drive very little, it needs gas and it is also Illegal. It needs new plates. I will most likely be made to pay a fine, personal property tax and I need insurance.

The luxuries I have, my parents pay for; my dad pays my phone and mom buys my cigs. They both take care of any extras for the children. I am very glad I have them cuz that extra $26. a mnth does not stretch far at all.

So I work at the school 3 hours a day. One hour in the morning and 2 in the afternoon. These hours totally screw up anything else I might get my hands on. I might bring home a $200 check and I get that once a month. Most days I wonder if it is really worth it.

I have an industrial sewing machine here but no business to make money from, but it is here just in case a money making op comes this way.

I have my own massage room in the basement of this building. I get paid $60 a hour for a full body massage and I ain't too shabby if I do say so myself but I only have 1 customer right now.

I iron Army Fatigues, I iron anything really. I was taught to iron by my grandma and mom, so I am pretty good at starching those seams, but I have 2 customers and I totally UNDER charge! ~stomps foot~

I clean houses. I do best when I am left in a room alone, no interruptions. I am anal and I am fast. When I was in Florida I charged $20 an hour and that is what I will start charging here. Right now the only "customer" I have is a really good friend.

So I sit here, staring at this screen, trying to figure out how to group all this together, get customers and make money.......All I get is bald patches from pulling my hair out..... oh YEAH

....... and a phone call from the EX. He wants the divorce and NOW. He has one piece of paper that he already has filled out and all he needs is my SS#. blllhahaha, like he will get away with all the pain he had caused and leave without paying for it.....Whatever, he is so naive!