Why am I like I am??
Why am I like I am, ESPECIALLY when I am in pain-emotional pain?

For instance, when people come into my life, I have a tendency to get very close to some of them. This is a GREAT feeling and we are on our way to building a very strong relationship. Then something happens, usually I am promised something, growth happens to only one person and/or I become very impatient.
THAT’S IT…..I am impatient……. How do I change that?
The ONLY way that I know how to deal with my impatience is to push people away or just leave them for good. I mean, if I am not getting what I want or need out of the relationship and ESPECIALLY if it is causing me pain then I should leave- right?
BUT WHY am I like this? I KNOW I do not want to loose the people in my life, but I can’t stand knowing the ones I LOVE do NOT love back the same amount, do not make the same sacrifices and do not fight to be with me.

So- I am taking a POLL…….. Should I be selfish, take care of me, so I am not sitting here like NOW with a crater on my friggen’ chest OR
Should I suffer for those I LOVE??