~*~BUSY, BUSY, BUSY!~*~
I have been having a BLAST the past couple days with S.
She makes some WONDERFUL shea butter & Comfrey to relieve arthritis and has also made a fantastic MIGRAINE MIRACLE that works great on MY headaches {if it helps me, believe me, it WILL help ANYBODY!} She has been doing so very well with her products that she opened an online store. The web site is not quite finished but coming along nicely. I will eventually put my afghans on the store site also {Thank you. S}
Now as I was unpacking my things after the move, I realized I had many left-overs from when I used to make my own bath salts and oils, etcetera and between the two of us {S and I} I decided to make some more of my bath salts and milk baths.
I came up with new recipes which work GREAT! We had a great time sitting at the table for hours, talking, coming up with new ideas, laughing and drinking coffee! I totally forgot how much FUN this was!
Within a day, we filled 4oz bottles with salts and milk baths for men and women for some friends, had my girls try the "Her Moon" salts.....{WORKED WONDERS! Now if I can just keep the 2 girls in that bath 24/7 we would be ok!}, have 3 possible sales on salts and an order for 5 salts and 5 milk baths by Friday! S got a new whole group of people who NEED her Shea and Comfrey!
All I can say is WOW! Praise the gods! Thank you Thank you Thank you for all of you wonderful blessings!

Now- Off to make new recipes.....One for fertility, one for menopause, one for passion.....Tell me what YOU want, I will make it!

Been doing a lot of reading lately. Aiyana and Kira are 2 of the wonderful women I have been reading most at times it is torturous and other times quite soothing.
Most who know me know that I am a submissive woman and my ex was my "Master", Oour relationship started and stayed that way until he became ill and had to leave the 7 year relationship. Relationships before that I was able to mostly be myself but not to that extent. I would be lieing if I said I didn't miss it-heck I still hold my sub page and visit it often, myself! I do NOT miss HIM- he hurt me, badly, I miss ME-the TRUE me. When He left, I had to hide the true me and become the dominant one to survive. It is working, I am getting things done, the kids are happy and actually benefiting. When I get things done I feel pride- pride is a happiness but can you be happy if you are unable to be yourself?
It is quite funny, the man I am with now possesses a very natural, innate dominance. He is very quite, soft spoken but I always know when he means business! I have always been able to read his cues, looks, breathes.....we have had talks about the D/s life but he is so much more comfortable keeping it natural. We have been together for about six months now and his dominance shows more every day.
When he gets aggressive, I giggle, of course under my breath, before I do what he wants because I feel so VERY GREAT to be back in that state! It is just so different with us compared to the other R/L relationships I have had. It is not forced, planned....Just natural.
I want to thank you girls for finding my blog, letting me look at me again, the me that I had hidden for such a long time. I think it is time for her to shine once more!

I am in search of a HAWTHORN TREE, a young one is very much perfered. I am in Missouri but if I can find a repitable place that could mail me one that would be okay by me.
Anyone know where I can get a HAWTHORN BABY?

~~*~~HAPPY SUMMER TO EVERY ONE~~*~~

Sorry I haven't posted in a few days, got myself caught up in some half-done projects around here, some lovin' on top of that and my crafts.
S and I are really popping out the ideas for the crafts that I will be doing, really, it is mostly her creative mind doing the thinking cuz my mind has been too busy creating my home so I truly appreciate having her mind to help me out!
As some of you know, I already make afghans, beautiful pieces of work that I truly enjoy doing! I am also adding a few of my own designed afghans which will be of a pagan influence and should turn out very well!
Other than the afghans I will be making eye-pillows to help will all conditions;from headaches, stress to problems sleeping.
I am also going to pick up making my own oils, powders, bath salts and gris-gris for any ailments.
YES, it IS quite a bit of work, but it is SO VERY worth the effort put into it all and the latter will be taught to my 12 y/o daughter who is now ready to learn and put forth the effort, study and work to become a very spiritual pagan young lady. I am so proud of her! Of course the twins would like to also learn, but they are still too young, IMHO, so I am teaching them meditation for now.
After reading this, please zip over to S's page and check out her Shea butter she has been working so very hard on! DAMN it is GOOD- if she can relieve MY pain with this, I know she can relieve yours!

Good Afternoon to all! Hope everyone is having a GREAT day so far!
My afternoon is slacking, I suppose it is because my morning was busy.
I woke at 7, regular morning rituals, took Siddalee back to see the doctor and went to see the doctor myself.
Sidda is eating now!! {YEAY! Thank the gods!} I have to sit with her, but the food under her nose and talk to her the whole time to get her to eat, but it is SO worth it!
She gets her stitches out in 10 days! He doc is the MOST AMAZING VET I have EVER KNOWN!

I seen a NEW doc today- that update can be found in my health blog. That way I don't bore you with it here.

It is already one in the afternoon, my landowner is here trying to set the shower in the second bath and I suppose I need to get my ass up and busy too.
The New Moon has me BUILDING so today I am going to get on the shadow box I have been promising myself and also a wall box for my altar. Hopefully if I have time and feel well I can also paint the living room with the kids. They should like that quite a bit!

I was going to name this post "Why Do I Need a Man"
but I know why I need MY Man! We just aren't gonna go that direction with this particular post cuz
Today I SMELL like a Man!

No-I have NOT lost my mind. In fact I just finished drywalling, taping and mudding the bathroom and installing the toilet all on my own! WOOT WOOT! OHHH Yeah- Look at me! All Stinky and Dusty and Proud!

boy am I tired, time for a cold beer and the damn remote control...

PS Siddalee update: She had surgery and it went well. The vet pulled a piece of yarn out of her intestines yesterday. She FINALLY ate a little food this afternoon and the vet still needs to watch her until tomorrow, I guess to make sure she eats more and has a BM.

Good HEALING Energies needed in my home today. Two of my kitties are having surgery.
Nemo, our baby boy, is being neutered; which is a good thing.
Siddalee on the other hand has swallowed a piece of acrylic yarn and has not eaten, past BM or drank on her own in 48 hours. I have forced an ounce of water an hour, used baby suppositories, massage, aloe, prayer, tears and the most I have been able to do is keep her hydrated and breathing. So this morning I took her along with Nemo to

Watson Road Veterinary Clinic
3725 Watson Road
Saint Louis, MO 63109
Tel: (314) 644-1544

The vet was such an amazing man, very caring. Not only about Siddalee but ALSO about my financial status.
I call at 3pm to see how she is, I just need to remember to BREATH, I am worried and I am NOT a big fan of "surgery" as most of you know.
S has spoken VERY HIGHLY about this vet and now I know why! They are WONDERFUL people!

OH Hail the Wonderful Guru of Computers, the Magnificent Hubby of S and Fab Father to L for fixing my ol' PC!
Yes-Once again it had a break-down. This time I thought it was broke for good, Thank the Gods for friends! I am soooooo HAPPY! I can't say thank you enough!

So during the PC break life has been about the same here. Still trying to get things painted, holes filled in the walls, second bathroom dry-walled....Etcetera

Kids are bored and fighting- nothing new there- normal for them.
They got their report cards in the mail last week!
PLEASE-Let me be the proud momma and say.......
I HAVE THE WORLDS MOST WONDERFUL CHILDREN! I have no idea how they do it. I mean, let's face it, I have thrown them some real hard-balls in their lives and they still pull through with flying colors.
Both the girls finished the year-HONOR ROLL and Zac only a couple points off the Honor roll scale. For Zac-that is just simply amazing! He started school with speech and reading disorders and finishes the forth grade at the TOP of his class!
WOOT WOOT....HAPPY MAMMA!! I certainly give THEM all the credit, they work so very hard!

Other things.....Not so happy things.......
This week, the 9th actually, marks the 1st anniversary of the Mighty Quinn's passing and on Saturday his mommy, my best friend of 20 years moved to Seattle. I know the move will be good for her and her hubby but St Louis will NEVER be the same and I am not sure if I will be either. There have been times that it didn't seem like we were that close, be we have always been-in our hearts and we will ALWAYS BE, no matter where she is!
She is a WONDERFUL woman, PLEASE go read her words OFTEN. See what she has going on in her life and read her words about her hero and ours, the Mighty Quinn.

Almost midnight and I am finally sitting down...well, for a second anyway cuz I need to switch laundry loads again. I finally got a WORKING DRYER! WOOT! And I am about caught up with all out clothes. My goodness, I never realized we had so many clothes!

My second bath is starting to come together; at least I have everything I need to start to “build” it. It needs drywall and plumbing. The shower still needs to be leveled. As soon as I get that all done I can start on bath #1 where I need to raise the floor and tile the walls.
Then, or during all of this, I will paint the living room. I have been kept busy but I am having fun with it.
There is a downfall though, my friends aren’t seeing or hearing from me at all. I miss them terribly and I need to take a day to just get together with them, just hang out, just a little hard when I need to make home “livable”, ya know? I am thinking of having Tracy come help with the living room! She is SOOOO very creative, in fact you can go check out some of her work here….{website}.
Oh, I put “it” out there that I need $$$ and Wallah,I am cleaning houses and ironing! Right now I am making roughly$150.00 a day. That would be SWEET if I worked 5 days a week, but I am only working that 1 day-right now! Anyone need any ironing done?

Things are coming together slowly around here. I am certainly happy for that!
I finally got a dryer that works {keep those fingers crossed that it stays working} so my laundry is getting caught up, I got the paint I need for my Living Room, Hall and the rest of my 1st bathroom. I need to drywall the 2nd bath and get my landlord to finish that shower. As soon as I get each room complete, I will post pics for you all to see. It is pretty need to know that I can do anything I want here-to this place and I don't own it, only renting. My landlord....land-OWNER is more like it, cuz he ain't no lord.....and I tend to clash and have already had a fight. I won, OF COURSE I WON, I am all powerful! hehehehehehaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
anyway, can you tell I am just a bit drained, pooped, beat? I am TOTALLY and I need sleep. I have A LOT to do tomorrow in a short amount of time. The kids are out of school for the summer starting at 12:20pm tomorrow afternoon-OHHHHHHHHHHHHHH BOY!
g'nite