I am finding that it is very painful at times to do what is best for me. It is heart- wrenching to not answer the phone when it rings, knowing who is calling. It is painstaking to move about the house, demanding myself to do my daily chores when all I want to do is stay in bed all day.
I know this too will pass- the heartbreak- I have been here before- too many times before and it will pass but that knowledge doesn't make it any easier.
I am very -VERY greatful that I have friends. I have people in my life right now that DO love me and they CARE about me and OH MY GODDESS it is so very overwelming! This morning I called Chasmyn and cryed on her, she kept me on the phone until I felt TONS better! I went through my email and my friend who is a song writer/singer wrote a song for me/about me! I cried like a baby! A has been calling whenever she has a chance - just to check on me, S comes to visit and have coffee even though her knees are killing her........Nan has been calling and catching me on line to check on me and so has Tracy and even Les.....all of the girls in my group......ohhhh man- here I go again........like a BOOB........I need a new box of tissues!
I LOVE YOU ALL!